This blog is about a sensitive topic but I know there are people who are going through or have been through similar things and I hope you can relate to this and know that you are not alone.
The year of 2017 was the most difficult year of my life by far.
I struggled a lot with my mental health because of the loss of friendships, family problems and bullying. Anxieties and depression were interfering with my daily activities and I eventually decided to give up. Having no motivation to do anything in life, I just sat around the house after school and did not care much about my grades. I was scared to open up to people so I held all the emotions within myself which made me not want to go to school because I was tired of pretending like I was fine.
I was not fine. I know I needed help.
But I was scared.
I was scared of people saying all I want is attention or that there is nothing wrong with me it’s all in my head or that no one actually cares about my problems I should just kill myself to make everyone’s lives better. And indeed, those comments were said to me when I did decide to open up to some people. But there was a spark in my life that I just couldn’t let go of.
People often ask me what it is that helped me through that period. The answer is the few friends that I had. They knew something was wrong, they cared for me when no one else did and most importantly they believed in me when I didn’t even believe in myself. They were there for me through the entire year and made me a better and much happier person that I am now. To be honest, without my friends, I don’t know where I would be right now. Maybe still laying around having absolutely no goals or any ideas about who I am and what I want to do in the future.
A year after, here I am, as the new Miss Teenage British Columbia moving on to nationals.
I guess what I am tryin to say is that when going through a hard period in life, always know that there are people who care and will always support you. They might not always be there every time you need them because they are busy with their lives, but at least they are there. And never give up. Things happen, people mess up, relationships can be complicated and feelings can be hard to control but those are no reason to let go of the beautiful life that you have. There is always something in your life that is worth fighting for and that is why I decided to join this pageant.
My experience made me realized that I can turn this story into something positive and help and relate to other youths who are going through similar things. I found my passion in life and that is to help as many people as I can. Being able to do a little act of kindness everyday makes me so happy. I also realized how important it is to have a strong support system so don’t be scared. Reach out to professionals or loved ones when you need help because they will always be there for you. I will always be there for you.